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haaaaa ,

hello guys :)

sorry i didn't post anything for a while

well , not feeling well xD

there's soo many gorgeous nurse take care of me :') 

haa . i'm in hospital xD

again :P

btw , its kinda fun sitting on bed , watching outside , 

duhh , so fun xD LOL

btw , i hope you guys tc of yourself ;)

not like me = =' what a bitch xD

don't play rains , don't play with razor

or you'll be like me xD

BHAHAHAHAHAH

seriusly , i'm getting crazy latlely xD

lol

soo , to nadia villa , hasif elf

and all my friend out there,

DON'T FREAK OUT !

saya memang penuh dengan sakit xD

so don't be friend like me :')

kalau tak , anda dijangkit virus xD

soo , tc oke ;) byee <3 

and guys , = =' don't worried , i'll be fine :') byee love <3 

the stars lean down to kiss you

and i lie awake and miss you

pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

cause i'll doze off safe and soundly

but i'll miss your arms around me

i'd send a postcard to you, dear

cause i wish you were here

i'll watch the night turn light-blue

but it's not the same without you

because it takes two to whisper quietly
 

the silence isn't so bad
'til i look at my hands and feel sad
'cause the spaces between my fingers

are right where yours fit perfectly
 

i'll find repose in new ways

though i haven't slept in two days
'cause cold nostalgia

chills me to the bone
 

but drenched in vanilla twilight

i'll sit on the front porch all night

waist-deep in thought because

when I think of you I don't feel so alone

 

as many times as i blink

i'll think of you tonight

 when violet eyes get brighter

and heavy wings grow lighter

i'll taste the sky and feel alive again
 

and i'll forget the world that i knew

but i swear i won't forget you

oh, if my voice could reach

back through the past

i'd whisper in your ear

oh darling, i wish you were here

: grimy , this will be my last post for you :') 

i hope you'll be happy with her ♥

and i'm sorry if i hurt you .

yes , it hard for me to let go someone i loved the most

know what? you're my true love :')

but its okey , i learn something

if you love someone with all your heart, the only way to prove him is

to let him go with someone he love :')

and i let you go, i wish ,i won't regret for this

although all this days we're like 'enemies' 

but we're not , i hope you'll be just fine :')

*btw , ni i copy lyric je , i tak sehebat you boleh buat amazing poems ♥

"Maybe part of loving is learning to let go" 

we've been through some hard times. But we've made it through it all.

And I think that all that it has done is brought us closer together. 

And if I had to, knowing that it would turn out like this, I would do it all over again. 

Some say love is like magic, but magic is just an illusion. 

You never forget your first love. There's always a special place for them in your heart, 

and no one could ever replace them or take them away from you. 

They are forever loved. i must try not to let my own 

present unhappiness harden my heart against the woes of others! 

You too are going through a dreadful time. Ah well, it will not last forever. 

There will come a day for all of us when "it is finished.

so long, fare thee well

the dancer and the dancing days have taken leave and fell

so turn down this bed of stone

quench me with the deadly nightshade from the rose that you belong

the long december rain is falling now

running down on streets to nowhere

music is my life youre my sweetest nightingale

but i cant hear it here no more 

and i go, i go

 hush now, dont shake or break

words have fallen silent like soldiers to the grave

no matter what they do or say

lay me on the sleepy meadow by the tracks upon your face 

i love you ♥ :')

die

 

As soon as forever is through, i though i'll be over you

The best way to mend a broken heart is die 

Cry as i may these tears won’t wash you away

Listen to your heart before you tell her goodbye

We always ignore the ones who adore us,

and adore the ones who ignore us

Tears are words the hard can't express
The hardest to do is waking up without you.

He taught me how to love, but not how to stop

 Breaking up is just like having the 

worst nightmare after having the best dream

True love is when you shed a tear and still want him

The times we were happy 

together are worth the times i cry alone

Real loss only occurs when you lose 

something you love more than yourself

It's amazing how someone can break your heart 

and you can still love them with all the little pieces

Wherever you are, you'll always be in my heart 

I hate the stars because i look at

the same ones as you do, without you

I would give up everything for one moment with you

for one moment is better than a lifetime of not knowing you

Loving you was my favorite mistake

Our sweetest songs are those 

that tell of the saddest thoughts

Pleasure of love lasts but a moment, 

Pain of love lasts a lifetime

The hardest thing to do is watch the 

one you love, love someone else

You can't buy love, 

but you can pay heavily for it

I'm afraid to love afraid to love so fast, 

because every time i fall in love it never seems to last

Its hard to pretend you love someone 

when you don't but its harder to pretend 

that you don't love someone when you really do

heart that you broke into pieces

jangan pernah katakan bahwa
cintamu hanyalah untukku
karna kini kau telah membaginya
 

maafkan jika memang kini
harus kutinggalkan dirimu
karna hatiku selalu kau lukai

tak ada lagi yang bisa ku lakukan tanpamu
ku hanya bisa mengatakan apa yang ku rasa

ku menangis membayangkan
betapa kejamnya dirimu atas diriku
kau duakan cinta ini
kau pergi bersamanya

ku menangis melepaskan
kepergian dirimu dari sisi hidupku
harus slalu kau tahu
aku lah hati yang telah kau sakiti

ku menangis
harus slalu kau tahu
aku lah hati yang telah kau sakiti

* maaf aku bukan seorang yang JIWANG xD 

*this thing just for fun ^^

you took my hand
you showed me how
you promised me you'd be around
That's right
  i took your words
and i believed
in everything you said to me

if someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
i'd stand up and punch them out
cause they're all wrong
  i know better
cause you said forever and ever
Who knew

remember when we were such fools
and so convinced and just too cool
  i wish i could touch you again
  i wish i could still call you  

i'd give anything for that

when someone said count your blessings now
fore they're long gone
  i guess i just didn't know how
  i was all wrong
they knew better
still you said forever and ever
Who knew

i'll keep you locked in my head
until we meet again
until we meet again
and i won't forget you 

what happened

if someone said three years from now
you'd be long gone
i'd stand up and punch them out
cause they're all wrong and
that last kiss
i'll cherish
until we meet again
and time makes
it harder
  i wish i could remember
but i keep your memory
you visit me in my sleep
my darling who knew
my darling i miss you
my darling who knew

dark lonely heart

too much pain

too much tears

too much screaming

too much secret

it's all hiding in my dark lonely heart

keeping tears inside

from heart become into pieces

too late

you already break it

come back , love me

too late , it all a lies

why?

why can't i giving up think of pathetic past

just three little words 

i love you

my dark lonely heart

keep whispering into your cold heart

its keep silent to death

like doesn't care about me

listen all my tears and scream

still keep silent

all your heart keep beating for the girl

the one you choose

beside me

my dark lonely heart 

keep walk again and again

but still didn't give up

until you say ' stop giving up'

i have to hear although my heart keep screaming

but no one will heard , its inside me

its cannot be cure anymore

except die

my dark lonely heart 

keep holding on to stay alive

although my spirit gone for good

many times i keep holding on

many times , i keep my tears inside

many times , i keep missing you

and many times , i keep stared at you from the distant

my dark lonely heart , now spoken

its broken , by you

I was thinking about him
Thinking bout me
Thinkin bout us 

What we gunna be?
Open my eyes, 

it was only just a dream...

So I drive on back 

down that road 

Will he come back? 

No one knows
I realize

It was only just a dream.

I was at the top and now its like I'm in the basement
Number 1 spot, Now he find  a replacement for him'

I swear now I can't take it
Knowing somebody's got my baby

Now you ain't around, baby I can't think
I shoulda put it down, should got that ring
Cuz I can still feel it in the air
See his handsome face, run my fingers through his faces
My love of my life,

he left me, Im tied.
Cuz I knew that it just ain't right

When I be ridin' man i swear i see your face at every turn
Trying to get my usher on but i can let it burn
And i just hope he know that he the only one i yearn for
No more will I miss him, when will I learn? 

 

Did give his all my love
I guess now I got my payback

now i'm in the club thinking all about my baby
HEY, he was so easy to love
But wait, I guess that love wasn't enough
I'm going through it everytime that I'm alone
And now I'm wishin' wishin' he'd pick up the phone
But he made a decision that he wanted to move on
Cause I was wrong. 

 

if you ever loved somebody put your hands up i

f you ever loved somebody put your hands up

now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything 

 

 

not the end

stop saying 

stop saying 

stop saying

goodbye !

please ,

just stop

please

don't go

please , let me near you

i miss you

i miss your warms hug

i miss your warms lips

i miss your warms voice

i miss everything about you

why you keep saying goodbye ?

why can't i near you ?

why can't i hold you?

you think saying goodbye will makes this over?

you're wrong

its make me hurt even more

but

its okey , i admit

i'm not strong enough

i try to let you stay

i try to sacrifice even more

i try to begging you stay

but 

i get a heart broken 

blood all over me

tears , cannot stop fallin everytime

i think about you

but , you make it worst

don't hate him ,

keep hating me

i'm the one that guilty

right ?

i'm the one should be blame because loving him

its okey

although i'm not strong enough

i just can cry and pray :')

the end ?

What should I do? I am just watching you
I can’t even say a short farewell
You hold on to my cold hands
But now I have to send you away

What should I do? You are going far away
My heart is filling with tears
Even though I try my best to hide it, I can’t
 

This heart I couldn’t catch, what should I do?

i don’t forget the memories we loved
Even if you find another person that makes you smile
Even the painful farewell, I am glad that it was you
Gathering all my sad tears, good bye

There was nothing I’ve done for you
Sadly, only scars are left
 

The person who encompassed my changed heart
Now I have to send you away, what should I do?

Don’t forget the memories we loved
Even if you find another person that makes you smile
Even the painful farewell, I am glad that it was you
If the tears fall because it is so painful to endure

Don’t forget the happy memories we shared
 

Even if you find another person that makes you smile
Even the painful farewell, I am glad that it was you
My love that I can’t reach, now I have to send you away

The only person that can make me laugh is you
Even if love is so deep and the heart hurts so much
Don’t forget the happy memories we shared
Even if you find another person that makes you smile
Even the painful farewell, I am glad that it was you
The thing that I could do with all my sad tears, good bye

before you leaving me

 i just want to say

  

thank you 

 and 

i love you  :'')

 

gone :')

 

erm , kak nina . . if you read this , after i finish my PMR , can i follow you to turkey or singapore? :') erm , i want to go somewhere far away from memory , i want to start a new one if he really want to leave my heart , i want to be alone :') can i cry a loud ? although you always slap me when i cry , LOL . i hope , you give me to come with you :') only you can stop me for doin' some STUPID stuff , btw , BAYAR BALIK RAZOR FEA ! xD you stolen my razor :'( ermmm . maybe you're right , he doesn't love me ^^ urm , maybe he happy with someone else other than me . lolz , i'm such a jerk ^^ bitches right ? lol .kak ninaa , i'm sorry about you and imran , i'll pray for you :') urm , that all ! nanti text or call me x) urm , thanks for teach me how to live ! love youuu ♥

the end of our love

i love you

that the only three words i can tell you

i need you

yes , but you never know how much pain i felt

i miss you

so much , do you feel the same ? 

i know , you lying

you don't love me

real with me , be truth to your heart

if you do , just stay

the more you avoiding me 

the more pain in my heart

the more you leaving me

the more razor and crying for me

don't you see ?

can't you know ?

how much i love you ?

why can't you understand ?

your lying

you never love me

you never did baby

but you admit that was true

but it wasn't

your heart belong to her

i can't see how much you love me ?

yes dear , i can't

how can i see with your silent 

how can i heard your heart when you far away

i don't know you

i don't know who are you

i want your love

just your heart

i don't look at personalities

i can't live 

i can't eat

i can't sleep

i can't focus on my studying

JUST THINK ABOUT YOU

love makes humans heart hurts

love makes humans feel pain

love makes humans sucks

love makes humans sad

love makes humans happy

love makes smiling on humans faces

and i promises to myself

i take that risk

to love you

i take that risk

to makes you happy

i just want you to smile when you with me

i just want you to hug me and tell

how much you love me

but, all my dreams, never come true

now , tell me if you hate me

tell me how much you don't like me

tell me why you want to leave me

i try myself to stop loving you

although it take me until my last breath

anything for you , my love

:')

three words ' i love you '

 

you're everything to me

you're my candle when i need a light

you're me pillow when i cry

you're my teddy when i need a hug

for short , you're my everything

why can't you just kill me ?

why can't you just kick me ?

why can't you just slap me ?

why can't you just block me ?

why can't you just forget me?

why can't you accept my love ? 

tell me you hate me

tell me you hate look me

tell me i'm ugly

tell me i'm a bitch

tell me i'm an idiot

tell me that i shouldn't love you

i'm crying

hits my head with things around me

force myself to forget you

i can't sleep

i can't eat

do you know what i think about ?

i think about  YOU

do you know how much pain i felt ?

do you know HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU ?

why can't you understand ?

pleasee , let me hold you

pleasee , hug me

please , i begging you

don't leave this weak and un-strong heart 

to sacrifice for your love again

i'm not strong enough to fight back

give me a change

although i keep saying goodbye

i never mean it 

can you understand ?

do you love her more ?

if so , keep saying goodbye and hate me

keep avoiding me 

i just want you to know

HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU :'(

should have done that
I should have ignored it
like something i couldn't see
I shouldn't have looked at you at all
I should have run away
I should have acted like i didn't hear it
like something I couldn't hear.
I shouldn't have listened to love at all

Without a word , you let me know love
Without a word, you give me love
You made me even hold your breath but you ran away like this
Without a word, love leaves me
Without a word, love tossed me away
what should I say next?
my closed lips were surprised on their own
coming without any words

 

Why does it hurts so much?
Why does it hurts continuously ?
Except for the fact that i can't see you anymore
And that you are not here anymore
Otherwise, it's the same as before.

 

staring from the start 

i never thought this would happend between you and me

do you know how much i love you ?

believe in you?

sacrifice just for you ?

why can't you appreciate what i done ?

and i just can't stop loving you

the pain in my heart vanish , after you make me smile

my problem just flow away 

but , that just being a sweet memory 

although you make me sad , mad and hurt me

my feeling to you 

never gone

i always love you

all this day , i keep thinking

should i just throw away this feeling 

that i created ?

i'm cry , cry and keep crying

that all i do

thinking for person who doesn't love you back

doesn't it hurt badly ?

would you cry if you see the one you love

with someone else ?

would you sacrifice to someone you love ?

would you sacrifice anything to make him/her smile ?

now , tell me , do you got spirit when all your doin is not being appreciate ?

i think , heart broken , crying and mad ?

erm , thats is all :')  thanks you ! ♥