all those sweet words

isn't it real ?

just for me .. but why ?

you give me hope

but you never come to me

all your love to me was a fakes ?

why you so cruel ?

what did i do ?

why can't i love you ?

all your words makes me smiling

but you never knows

why can't you touch me like you did to her ?

why i hear all your lies ?

why my heart keep hoping to you ?

i'm useless believe that you would love me

but you didn't 

why i leave him for you ?

i love you so much

but why can't you see all my sacrifice ?

if loving you is wrong , why you give fakes hope ?

saying that you love me but all you give me is heart broken

why did i trust you with all my heart ?

all i can do just crying

you never cares

all the thing i do you never knows 

if i die , you won't be sorry

i swear that i have my guts so takes some poison pills

will you do the same ? 

i guess not

you don't and never love me

i should of known you was trouble from the first kiss

Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash

yes you did

you never knows

you never feels

how much pain i've been through

to give me all your love is all i ever asked

but you just give me a fakes one 

you think it all a funny story 

you were wrong !

i love you so much ,

deeply inside my small core

but why can't you understand ?

it hard to feel this way

would go through all this pain, take a bullet straight through my brain,

yes , i would die for you baby but you won't do the same

all this days were fakes

but always be remind

to fly away

thanks you

for all your fakes love

for you information

i'm happy although its was fakes

keys to my hearts is you

The day you finally decide to love me will be the 

day after the day I have given up on chasing you 

You have to forgive to forget, 

and forget, to feel again.

Relationships are like glass. 

Sometimes it`s better to leave them broken 

than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.

It's funny how a person can break your heart,

and you can still love them with all the little pieces

million words would not bring you back, 

I know because I tried,

neither would a million tears, 

I know because I cried

Don't cry over anyone who won't cry over you. 

i'll try to say that to my heart ,

but my heart never wouldn't listen 

my hearts saying that i can't forget you

i don't believe at first but its true

all this words is useless

god heaven what is my sin ?

please let me forget him

its hard and its pain

but i can stand it other seeing him

touch her like we used to touch

see his willing to smile at her

If you love me, let me know. 

If not, please gently let me go

I hate this feeling, it's one I know all to well,

it's a thing called heartbreak and it hurts like hell

Tired of these endless games, Time to end the darkened day To raise the sword 

To kill the light Because there is no reason left to fight

There is not enough darkness in all the world

to put out the light of even one small candle.

after i understand
i'm not the best

that's in your heart
 i don't believe

 the one for you is her

 that understand you

it's not me

now , please forgive me

after i being dumb to you
only my heart limited 

 to understand you

forgive me

although i still love you

i'll have to let you go

i have to forget you

although my hearts still loving you

although my bright need you

i'll have to let you go

and only you
that can understand me 

that can read my heart

apparently , she the one

that willing flatter you

that always hold you

giving all the love much more

its better than me

oh darling

 

You seem quite nice for a girl with good looks
And I’m the kinda fellow that’ll make you feel better when your life gets shook
So give it a chance according to your plans
I bet I'm not number one on your list to kiss, but please understand

You seem quite shy, but you’re oh so cute
And I’m the kind of girl that would love to be yours if you asked me to
So just take a chance, try to hold my hand
I swear I’d never let go
Just let me know if you’d be my man

I really want to come out and tell you
Oh darling, I love you so

If you’d ask me for my heart, there’s no way that I’ll say no 

Oh darling, just take a chance please

So we can stay together till hell starts freeze

You seem quite right for a boy like me

And I wanna know would you treat me well
Would you treat me like a queen 

Cause I’d like to show you and make you see

that although we’re different type
We were meant to be

I really want to come out and tell you
Oh darling, I love you so

If you’d ask me for my heart, there’s no way that Ill say no

Oh darling, just take a chance please  

So we can stay together till hell starts freeze

So I gotta ask you,
I cant be afraid
I gotta take a chance at love
So what do you say

Oh darling, I love you so

If you’d ask me for my heart, there’s no way that Ill say no

Oh darling, just take a chance please

So we can stay together till hell starts freeze

Oh darling, I love you so

If you’d ask me for my heart, there’s no way that Ill say no

Oh darling, just take a chance please

So we can stay together till hell starts freeze

When I Die ♥

I sure as hell wouldn't want to die like this
No, I sure as hell wouldn't want to break down here
Whoa, Everybody can see me, see me
Oh and everybodys watching, they're watching
And it's the worst feeling knowing that everybodys living, but me

I wish I knew my purpose, purpose
I wish I knew my purpose, purpose
I wish I knew my purpose, purpose
I wish I knew my purpose

When I die will I make it home?
When I die will I go alone?
ooooh is anybody gonna answer the door?
When I die will I make it home?
When I die will I go alone?
Is anybody gonna answer the door?

Like I don't already know, I'm pushing envelopes.
And proceeding to be the, be the show.
Whoa, that'll be what I say, I say, just to stop them from looking at me, at me.

I wish I knew my purpose, purpose
I wish I knew my purpose, purpose
I wish I knew my purpose, purpose
I wish I knew my purpose

When I die will I make it home?
When I die will I go alone?
ooooh is anybody gonna answer the door?
When I die will I make it home?
When I die will I go alone?
Is anybody gonna answer the door?

And when I'm letting go, of windows, and I'm looking out for myself,
And when I'm letting go, of windows, and I'm looking out.
When I'm letting go of you, that'll be anyday
such a what alieve day

When I die will I make it home?
When I die will I go alone?
ooooh is anybody gonna answer the door?
When I die will I make it home?
When I die will I go alone?
Is anybody gonna answer the door?

what can i do ?

beside seeing you with her

all i can is sitting and crying

thinking , is this the right thing to do ?

why i'm still crying to person i have to let go ?

i can't stop loving you

but its too late

what i'm doing not gonna make you come back

i wish i had one more change to hug you

kissing your warms lips deeply

and my tears start to fall all over you

why can't i stop ?

will you be my pillow for me to cry ?

will you be my teddy for me to hug ?

will you be my smile if i lost my lips ?

and will you love me like you did to her ?

why can't i forget you ?

i don't know what to do

why can't i help myself ?

why these three little words always i say to you ?

i love you

there no place in your hearts for me

why you keep begging me to stay ?

i don't need your mercy

i'm leaving for your own's good

to have a happy relationship with her 

its my fault from the start loving you

i just can't forget you

and i hope , you can forget me

please , don't think saying ily to me is easy

i can't accept if you think it easy to loving people in the same time

i try , but i can't i choose you beside him

and its okey , you don't need to do the same

goodbye and goodnight

my love , look me in the eyes and say that you love me many times

maybe my hearts will open and stay

would you ever love me as much as you can ?

you'll promise me that you won't leave me ?

i'm sorry i hurts you 

i just think thats this is the best way to keep you away from me

i don't want you to hurt seeing me crying over him that never loves me

i'm just alone

sitting in the corner of my room crying like bitches need something really desperate 

why i'm thinking withour using my brain ?

i'm sorry . i just can't be with you

just five words 

i'm afraid to hurt you

will you ever let me go ?

will you stop crying over people useless like me ?

i'm just a big fat liar bitches that useless

why you love me ?

i can't stop loving him

i don't know why , but i'm so scared

only razor be with me

wasting my blood and tears

waiting for someone thats impossible want to be mine

i'am sorry my love . promise me you moving on without me 

moving on without my smile , my hugs and my sweet words

i'm sorry

 

all the right moves were gone

between you and me

   Seconds hours so many days

 every moment last forever

if you feel you've lost your ways

give me reason why i'm still living in this world

don't give me that look

i have to go as i wanted to forget you

its okey , its my fault hurting you

disturb your relationship 

i'll go

here i'am still holding on

 

i'll make it through the pain
Or through all my aches and pains
Weather the hurricane

To get to that one thing

When i think the road is going nowhere
Just when i've almost gave up on my dreams
Then take it by the hand and show you that i can

I jumped every bridge
I risked being safe but I always arise

I’m so glad you made time to see me.

I haven’t seen you in a while.

You’ve been good, busier then ever.

Cause the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind.

 

So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying I’m sorry for that night,
And I go back to December all the time.

Turns out freedom ain’t nothing but missing you,  

Wishing that I realized what I had when you were mine.

 I’d go back to December, turn around and make it all right.

These days I haven’t been sleeping
Staying up playing back myself leaving,

stay up playing razor all the time

And I think about summer, all the beautiful times

I watched you laughing beside me
Realized that I loved you in the fall.

 

Then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind.
You gave me all your love and all I gave you was goodbye.

So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying I’m sorry for that night.

i'll go away to remain all my sins to you

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile, so good to me, so right,
And how you held me in your arms that december night,
The first time you ever saw me cry.
Maybe this is wishful thinking,
Probably mindless dreaming
If we loved again I swear I’d love you right.

 

 

blood love

 

hey my love

i'm knocking your hearts

am i still in your heart ?

my hearts break down into million of pieces

its raining blood

 feeling good after using razor

blood come out so fast

i watch with my own's eyes that blood coming out with my tears fallin

its doesn't feel hurt cuz its can't compare the hurts i feel inside

just feeling empty 

why ?

yeah , too hardcore

everytime you say something you like

i wrote it down

i want to be what you like

i follow your words

my wallpaper at my phone is your pictures

but why you leaving this empty heart ?

tonigh i put my razor off

too many scars on my hand

doesn't make my hearts feel better

can i continued hurting myself with this pieces of iron?

everytime i see your faces

i cry and take this pieces of iron and hurt myself

how much i want to forget you

but i can't . so it useless

when you say i love you

i say don't , love her more than me

my tears start to fall when you say 

' how about share ?'

hey , need one hearts to love someone 

you never love me . are you ?

todays i'm crying

don't you know ?

just go 

far away from me

i never want to see you

but my hearts always have you 

and i always love you with this broken hearts

 

memories keep playing

eveytime you with me 

i feel something new

feeling bright

now its all gone

i'am leaving you

its hurts , but i have to face it

i can't see you

i can't meet you

if i did the first thing i will do is cry

i just can't stand the way you look at me

its make me feel happy but my tears fall

everytime i lies to people that i don't love you

i feel sadness come 

raining blood didn't stop in my empty world

my world just have you

i drop my razor down

feeling good after hurting myself

all the blood keep fallin slowly

and my tears never gonna stop fallin down

its hurt badly, but its getting hurts if i  force myself to forget you

why can't i forget you ?

hearing all my lies make me cry and all night all i do just cry

why can't i stop ?

all this days was a fake smile ?

why can't i smiling ?

i realize my smile were gone

its was too late ..

my smile , my self and my hearts

is belong with you

why can't i get it back ?

just one way to get it

is loving you

be with you

and thing of you

everytime i did that , why i can't stop smiling ?

is this love ?

why its hurt badly ?

why ?

can't i just forget you ?

all night me tears never stop fallin

hearing your voice 

hearing bads new from you

begging me to stay

why can't i accept that you are not mine ?

why i keep lying that i don't love you ?

why ?

all our memory fly in the dark night

feeling empty with tears on my cheeks

saying to myself ' what should i do when you're gone far away ?'

why i being so stupid 

       will you go while you know how much i love you ?

you will go far away

its impossible to remember me

how can i touch you ?

how can i see your smile ?

even i got your pictures ,

i smile to you , but you didn't smile back

why ?

ouh , its just a pictures 

its will never moves

one day , i want to go to the first time i lay my eyes on you

LAKE VALLEY

to throw our memory in the lake

screaming like crazy people

that how much i love you

will i ever see you again ?

will i ?

maybe our last talk were our last contact

ouhh , how much i miss your voice

last nite you make me laugh

smile and cry

you and her , just perfect .

why i disturbing you and her ?

i'am bad person and pathetic 

she gorgeous and you a handsome dude

makes a perfect couple <3

 now you have to makes her smile like you did to me

i want you to be happy 

please stop begging me to stay 

if you did , i can't forget you 

you will grab my last wish right ?

take care of my hearts (:

don't break it

forget the past , because it just can be a memory ♥

just saying that

I hope you’re doing fine

And if you ever wonder
I’m lonely here tonight
Lost here in this moment
Time keeps slipping by
If I could have just one wish
I’d have you by my side

i love you

And if today I don’t see your face
Nothing’s changed, no one can take your place
It gets harder everyday
Say you love me more than you did before
And I’m sorry it’s this way
But I’m coming home, I’ll be coming home
And if you ask me I will stay, I will

Well I tried to live without you
But tears fall from my eyes
I’m alone and I feel empty
I’m torn apart inside

I look up at the starts
Hoping you are doing the same
And somehow I feel closer
And I can hear you say . .

i love you more then i did before  ♥

you are too late

every minutes  every second you had a change to say ..

why did you use that time ? to say how much you feel ..

its too late .. but its okey , i think i'll never deserve to feel your love again

she better than me , and i know your hearts say the same things

when the time my tears fallin down , its not you the one who hugs me

when the time i'am happy , its not you the one whos makes me laugh

i know you too perfects too take my little pieces heart .

too perfect to deserve my kiss .too perfects to deserve my hug 

because you can get much more 

and i don't blame you

i never did . because these three words always play in my hearts :

i love you

did you know ?

i know i'am crazy .

but have i told you lately ,

you're the reason make me fly in the open sky

i don't want to disturb you anymore 

i will go far from you .

to forget about us

i hope you do the same

our memory is history

now , you're free  

goodbye true love <3

GOT MILK MODEL :D

 

 

woahh ! dude , i admire your talent x) hahaha ! bagus jugak en jadi model susu :D famous ouh !

nanti ibu2 mahu beli susu x) HAHAHAHA . lol , btw nazim here is my goood hansdsome best friend :)

he's nice and takecare of me ! lol , he like a big brother to me :) i never meet him but i know , he's a gentlemen :D ♥ wowww . nazim ! GOOD LUCK IN YOUR LIFE DUDES :D hehehe

suka kot time die senyum :) manis jee . gaahhh ! rase nak tarik2 je muka die xD hohoh .  ehehe , nazim ! spm okeyy kan ? :) hahaha . actually , takthu nak cakap ape dah :| dah makan ? dah mandi ? dah cuci jamban ? xD ahahahah . well , just want to say ! you are my good friend :) love ya ! ♥

my empty world

 

you never know what i been through this days . you never care if i cry for you  .. 
you never know , love is hurting people that don't have any sins .
if you don't love me , please stop hurting me 
stop sending me mesej 
stop calling me
stop saying good word that can makes me loving you

i don't know what to do , 
i try to avoiding you
but i can't 
why ?
if you do that without any reason .
please , just go away 


just pretend we never even meet !

oh now i found you :)

                                heyhey ! where have you been all my life ! :)

budak , i love you :) you the sweetest thing i ever had :D you know what ! i will keep you :)

heheh , you understand me , all the thing we share , we never have fighting . some people know each other just 1 days , have fighting for a long minutes . hmm . but you are different :) i know you're ! i'am sorry what have you been through . and i always be with you no matter what ;) i will help you .

sometimes i'am jelous at you x) cuz you are so DAMN PRETTY  ♥ hehe . and not just pretty . you're the greatest , and good person i ever meet ! i really admire you nadia :D ♥ will you be mine ? <3 hehehe . hey , i'am not a les =.= geezz x) hahaha .well , i'am glad to know you nadia :) thanks you god ! you meet me with someone understand me ! awwww<3 hooo . finally , i have bestie again :D ♥ ♥

xoxo -sofea- :)  ♥

last storyy :)

wahhh ! i'am PREGNANT ! hahaha . heyy no lah =.= actually , i'am in the hospital right now ;) cuz i fall down stairs =.= i always like this , cuai xD but i liked here :) just lonely . . . grrr . benci uhh duduk hospital . makan ubat x(( gaaaaaahhh ! mommmyyy nak balik :( and my mommy say ' sape suruh kau jatuh !' baiknya mommy :) AHAHAH . heyy . i'am alright ;) just can't sleep and can't eat . don't know why :(

i'am just feeling empty , nothing to do just sit and online . duhh xD btw , i just can't forget what happend this morning . hmm . maybe he doesn't know about me right now . hohoh . its okey :) i didn't care . lolz . but , i really miss his voice . hmmm . asal aku terperangkap dalam bilik nii ! tapi ade aircornd ! :D bestbest , and sejuk =.= grrr . dahlah coco takde :( hmmm . paapaaa ! bawak coco ! then nurse menyibuk ' besar2 nak teddy bear lagi ? ' grrr >< bengong betul ahh ! btw , aku tak sakit ape pon , just tulang kaki retak :| tak sakit lahh ! cuma derita . HAHAHAH . takdelahh . who those hate hospital , jangan nakal2 dirumah ;) tngk aku , kene menghadapi jugak =.= haishh ! tpi doktor handsome2 :D mintak number2 ! ngeee xDD

hey stupid ! he doesn' love you anymore ! jangan buat die benci kau ! hmm , i think he doesn't love me anymore , hasif i'am sorryy . yeah i terlalu jeles . cuz i love you . salah ek ? hmm . ni i tak suka ade bf handsome macam you :( nanti ulang macam i ngan fir , hmm . dahdah ! sofeaa jangan ingat balik ! forget2 . yeahh ! hooo . but its okey , i give you time lah :) but , if you want to break , just say so . i don't mind . if you happy , i happy :) heyy , jangan risau i kt sini , i ade nurse and doktor2 yang handsome :O ulalala xD



byeeeeee ! :)

new me -____-' !

gahh ! why i'am so ugly ? 

peeiiinnyyuuu !

can i change my faces with selena gomez or kristen stewart ??

iif i can , wowww ! i shout every morningg !! HAHAHA

heyy , my faces not GORGEOUS , BAUTY , CUTE OR WHAT THE HELL IS SAME MEENING WITH BEAUTY AND STUFF = =' 

seriusly , ape yang Cantiknya ? aku tengok hodoh ja .

korang buta ea ? pergi ke HOSPITAL ! cepatcepat :D

but , i'am gratefull okey ;)

geezzz

weyh tangan ! asal kau bangang sangat !

pergi potong rambut aku :'(((((

shit !!!

>< mommyyyyyyy .....

make my hair grows fasterrr :((((

   FYI .

rambut aku gile babi macam langsat ! laknat ! x(((

gaaahhhhhhhhh !

guys , i give you tips ,

kalau korang nak potong macam artis dalam movie korea ,

jangan sesekali POTONG SENDIRI !!!!

nanti korang akan menyesal cam aku :((

gaahh ! i wan't my hair back :(

oh my god ! 

my idiot damn hair :(

oh DAMN SHIT ASSHOLE !

why my hair this uglyy !

kenapa tak boleh lagi hodoh ha bangsat !!

grrrrr ><

sorryy for my bad words :(

i'am really sad and mad !

no mood ! i hate to watch my faces in the mirror .

i don't want to snap more pic anymore !

until my hair grow backk! 

GGGGAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH !

 :((((