where the love ?

What happened to us?
Where did the love go?
I didn't see it coming,
The love died slow,

Now it's all about jealousy and hate,
Can't stand to live this way,
I need everything to stop,
Guess there's nothing left to say,

My mind is so confused,
Heart broken in two,
Why couldn't we just stop before it got outta hand?
Mind scrambled nothing left to do.

SIS'TA :D

engku ika binti takthu :D haha , seriusly , isn't she lovely ? :) i love when she smile ! i'm lying if i describe just one of my fav thing i like about her ! because it too many thing's i like about her ! she soo gorgeous and good to me ! :) is this what it feel's like having a sister ? waaa ~.~ yaAllah , kenapalah engkau tak berikan hambamu ini kakak ? ish2 , HAHA . FYI , she a caring person and humble okeyy :D and SHE'S MINE ! xD actually , not 100% mine xD maybe 20 or 40 percent :P rite now , i'm desperatly want to see her >< grr ! i bet she soo gorgeouss ! hehe :) saya pon nak mengaku , saya ni bukan adik yang baik sngt xD kekadang nakal , gedik and terlalu over sngt gurau :P saya ni jenis lembap and cepat gila babun BLURR xD kalau saya gelak , tak boleh nak stop ! hahah , pelik kan ? muka pon hodoh perangai dh pelik . ish2 . maaflah kerana akk dpt adik mcm saya ni :) btw , saya sayang akk kalau akk sayang saya and jaga saya :) love youu ♥ and i try my best to make you happy by my side :3

struggle to put my heart under arrest;
cuffed restrained from loving you 

yet i always collapse under pressure,
releasing emotions for they override all
as i relapse to dangerous depths of tragedy where
stinging sensations shock each nerve within 

pain intolerable, yet i still live

shedding chances, undeserved

for it's all i have left to give.

goodbye blog:')

hey guys :') i just want to say , maybe i won't open this blog again , never open it . i hope it true . because this blog , really mean to me . i really love to tell and share all my story , but it too much , just let me keep it :') its pain , it make tears , sometime it fun . lol . but its cool , i will miss all my blog friend and blog.spot:") when i read all my PATHETIC story , my eyes start to cry , my heart start feel the pain and memory start to came . so better if i just don't ever come back to this pathetic book :') maybe i'm going to open a new one . i hope its better and no more sadness and pain . so, goodbye BLOGSPOT :') * cheer's =]

laying here alone in the dark
just staring at the wall,
tossing and turning restlessly
trying not to focus on just how much

i truly wish you where here.

going through my days
kinda feeling like an act
as i try to pretend i'm fine
and not show how much it hurts me
wishing you were really by my side.
 

i try to understand,
try to be patient and see,
try to truly see your point of view
but i can't say I really see.

nights of silly, stupid fights,
saying we just don't want to do it
and saying we just give up,
breaking each others hearts again
from the stress that we're under.

sometimes i don't really care to see,

i don't want to try to understand,

it make me heart broken and cry
why you make the choices you do sometimes
when you could just simply tell me yes
and end all this heartache we know.
 

i see the risks, i see the challenges,

i can see the troubles as clearly as you
that are coming towards us
just over that ridge,
you try to protect me but i say let me face it.

i'm your hope and your peace,
your sure thing to hold tight to
and i see and understand that,
you want to protect me, me always safe,
and i know your intentions are good.

but it kills me inside every time

i can't reassure myself that you're safe,
watching you take risks from this safe distance,
it rips me up from the inside out,
never knowing every time you step out.

laying here alone in the dark
just staring at the wall,
tossing and turning restlessly
trying not to focus on just how much
I truly wish you where here.

she looks as him,
broken,used,and ruined,
but all he sees is mad,
he asked what's wrong,

she can only say nothing,
but as she walks away,
she asks the herself,
what's not wrong?

she can't take one more lie,
one more broken promise,
one more broken heart,
one more hurtful remark,

she just can't,
her heart isn't all there,
she feels as if it's gone,
it's only pain,

and when she talks,
her voice is filled with sadness,
rarely what she trys to make happiness,

she listens tuh the sadness music,
but no one notices,
they only hear her singing,
but she's really hiding her pain,

she doesn't wanna die,
she doesn't wanna laugh,
she doesn't wanna cry,
she doesn't wanna hurt,

she just wants all the pain to leave,
but nothing's working,
everyone is trying tuh help her,
but NOTHING will work,

it just needs tuh be fixed,
she needs some special tuh fill the whole,
while she trys tuh avoid hurt again,
she can't trust thoughh,

everything seems harder,
she feel like she can't control herself,
she's losing all happiness,
she needs a light in the dark room she calls her life

goodbyes

hear me scream,hear me cry
hear me please,say goodbye

take it all,make a dash
leave it behind,go now, fast

took a chance,bad mistake
you saw the truth, its far too late

broken promises,repeated lies
hidden secrets,now say goodbye